Devotion

Dear WEb,
I just allowed myself to come back to my grief as I was listening to Lisa Gerrard. I moved in dance around my altar I created last week. It is my devotion. I am totally devoted to this Love and this Loss of Phoenix. I can busy myself so easily... and then if I just allow a moment to be moved by some piece of music that puts me there...I go. Wholely and willingly.

Is this pathological to be so devoted? My partner might say so. Maybe some therapists. Some part of me may agree. And...in the larger scheme of things, I say NO, absolutely not. There's nothing pathological about such deep Devotion. I am a living prayer when I allow this devotion to come through. Not a prayer of wishing, which I do do, but more of a prayer of...something else. A prayer of loyalty. A prayer of remembering. Remembering a pact. Remembering Phoenix. Re-membering myself. Re-membering Spirit and Her presence in this Devotion.

That all might not be expressed exactly like I mean. It's close enough. Devotion.
Devoted,
Melissa