Is it True??

Dear Web,

I had nothing uplifting to write today and was going to "call it a day." While I have been memorializing events of the last two and half months (and will continue to do because it is a worthy task), I have also been contending with the present immense grief particularly around not feeling Phoenix's presence. As I have mentioned before, my dreams have been particularly poignant for me as a way to stay connected to deeper places in myself and in the Spirit world. And Phoenix has not appeared in my dreams for these last 10 weeks. The only dream I had remotely related was a few days after his return to the Earth. In this dream, I walked into the living room, looked at my other dog and cat (Beetle and Myrrh) and said aloud,
"Where's Phoenix?" with such an innocent tone. There was a long pause while the words settled in the air and then, like a rock dropping inside me, I remembered and collapsed to the floor sobbing in my dream and then into my wake time.

Then nothing. It's felt like I am wandering in a dark labyrinth with high walls so I cannot see anything else but what's right in front of me and that's mostly darkness. At some point in the last couple of weeks, I wondered (one of those random wonderings that just appear in my consciousness), what if Phoenix and I are wandering the labyrinth together?? Nah...that's silly, I told myself. And put the wondering aside. Then yesterday while at the copy shop waiting for help, I overheard this guy come up behind me saying he needed directions; he was lost. I ignored him, since there were others around. Then, I heard something that got my attention: "I'm from Phoenix." OH! I turned around and started helping direct him to where he needed to go. He's from Phoenix (yeh, I know the city, but come on!!)!!! Ok, so I tell myself maybe this is a sign from my Phoenix that he is trying to get to me! Then...there is nothing else, so I let it go.

Then...something else big shows up. Just now, I am in the middle of an email to a dear sister who lost her companion dog a couple years ago and has maintained a strong spiritual connection with her. I have asked this sister to see if her dog can connect somehow with Phoenix and send me a sign, one that is undeniable. The phone rings and it is her telling me to listen, listen, listen to what just happened. She had/has been in contact with her beloved spirit dog (often through the siting of deer who are dear animals to my sister) and asked for a sign and tonight she just got one--a single deer who had been visiting her back yard by herself for many weeks now, brought a companion deer! As she is telling me this I am weeping that it is True, that this is Phoenix!! Could it be!?? This is her sign that she is with Phoenix and that he is finding direction to me through her, my dear sister's beloved!!! Another sister who was also there was taking photos of these two deer and... here's the clincher...the deer did not come out in the photo! It just looks foggy, she says! They were in spirit form!

Is it True!?? Are you getting closer to me, dear Phoenix? Are you making your way with help? Are we getting closer to one another as we move through the labyrinth?? Is it True?

Love,
Melissa